Sunday, April 28, 2013

Alphabet Love Song

Alphabet Love Song
(For PC 37, 38, 39)


A B C D E F G H… H… H…

H has become too heavy a letter for me.
Home, heart, hurt…
Heavy because home is where the heart is
And being here has halved my heart hundreds of times
So each of you can take it home with you.
And with your heart in over 80 countries,
There can only be hurt.

A B C D E F G H I J K L

Hurt and longing.
Longing for those you may never see again
And for those whom seeing everyday is still not enough,
Longing goes hand in hand with leaving and being left
And we learn to get good at that here, don’t we?

But there is also love.
So much love that it makes all this heaviness,
all this longing and leaving,
worth it.
So much love that it makes sense that I’d need
90 heart horcruxes to deal with it
and I know that whether I’m in
Argentina or Australia,
Zimbabwe or Zambia,
That there will always be love
And there will always be home.

Sins of the Flesh

Flesh only begets more flesh
And this flesh of mine
-formed in sin and shapened in iniquity-
knows only lust
and I dance between longings.
Flesh begets more flesh.